Friends....

Classmates years ago....
reunioned many years after....
had this strange feeling never felt before....
an urge to know her better....

The one i was looking for....
no doubt i thought it was her....
till then reality strikes...
the cross that divides...

Met again after several months....
an awkward silence fills the air.....
i yearn for the day to come....
where fantasy will become an reality....
a wishful dream i must say.....
which will never see the light of day....

Only when she's attached so i pray....
will then it be my happiest day....

We were soldiers......

Was out with my army friends at Marina Square 'HANS' yesterday.We havent met up with each other for more than 2 years, which is probably the reason why we all had so much to catch up and update on each others' lives , that we chatted for more than 3 hrs, till the auntie had to chase us out of the shop.

Its felt really good to see these guys again, and to know that they are doing pretty well in their selected fields. Yes, we may have argued, fought and had wanted to kill each other back then in the army. But thats all in the past (plus the fact that guys are generally more magnimous ;p), the sweet memories were all that we remembered... The funny incidents/accidents that we encountered with each exercises... The crappy officers or staff .... the distinct characteristic of each section mate... an of course our favourite KOH'S anecdotes... haha... Those were the days man....

Then so happen that when i was walking along suntec today, i saw the ndp mobile column stationed at city hall.. so i called hong leong, and met up with him where he was stationed there as the commander of the reserve CEV. Damn... the first thing he asked was why i was alone, and not with some mei meis.... haiz... would i be able to look for him if i was with some gals??? maybe i could, maybe there's some gals who are willing to stand beside me under the hot sun, patiently waiting while i spent half an hour chatting with my old pal....He is now a first sergeant, and an instructor at the Engineer institute... haha.. maybe he will be my instructor when i go back for my reservist.. cant imagine calling him "yes sgt toh, no sgt toh".... think i will probably drag him away for canteen breaks instead.. lol...

I'm sure many of u out there wont understand why i get so excited talking about my army experiences... i know that it had been/IS a nightmare or lousy experience for many of you.... and for the gals, the topic just bores u..... But for me, i did enjoy the 2.4 years, and i'm glad that i had not wasted that 2 years of my life. I was able to experience a life that was totally different. Beside good and understanding superiors who were there to shelter me whenever i was in trouble, i was given the freedom to make my own choices and decisions, which is unlike in school or at home, where everything were well taken care of for me... I was given the chance to participate in many stuffs while in camp, be it in the robotics competition (Which i had no experience in), the inter rubgy tornament (which i was a reserve haha), as well as classified trials..... All these are important in shaping my character, which makes up pretty much of what I am today....(*comments.. haha.. it can be bad or good)

Still it has been 5 years since we have crossed each others' paths.... I wonder how we will be in another 5 year time... But whatever happens, I pray for the best for all. Like that stupid sign outside sungei gedong say.... ONCE ARMOUR ALWAYS ARMOUR... =)

See the resemblence between my tank and metal slug?.........

Convenience of Queenstown

Had my breakfast at the hawker centre opposite my house today, normally i would have 打包 home but not today since my parents are out 拍拖ing... While i was eating, it suddenly dawn on me that i have been living in a prime location all my life... Queenstown is really the best place to live in for oNe reason... CONVENIENCE

1) 2 mins crawl away from Queenstown MRT station
2) 3 mins slow walk to Queenstown sports complex (Got swimming pool somemore)
3) 5 mins stroll to "almost" gf place... (damn... would have strike out "almost" if not for religion haha)
4) 5 mins to the nearest Queenstown Library, 15 mins to Orchard Library...
5) 10 mins bus ride to Town
6) 8 mins brisk walk to Good foods.... (Alexandra Village, ABC market)
7) 5 mins to nearest supermarkets (NTUC, Cold storage @ anchorpoint, or 5 mins ride to NTUC Tiong bahru plaza)
8) 15 mins to FMPS/SS and NJC
9) 20 mins to NUS
10) 30 mins to Woodlands check point
11) 45 mins to Yishun

Ok, i've got to admit that i used to hate this place very much. Having stayed in this town all 23++ years of my life, and moving to a new flat which is like less than 200m away from the old one. I used to lament that i do not have friends that stay close enough to me, to go to school with, and play hop scotch with.... Unlike those lurvy dovey SBC dramas, i had no 青梅竹马 to grow up with , and eventually fall in love with each other, and ahem 私定终身,长相思守, 儿孙满堂 ...

I'm not complaining now though.... many of the little girls have grown up to be in their sweet 18s now =p

Usher @esplanade

went for my usher briefing at the esplanade... Really like the feeling of being in the big durian... The staffs try to create a very 'family' atmosphere, which is really really personal...What they want from us is our time and committment, and in return we are given priorites over others in term of temp works, and interns... cool... though i will be graduating soon, and all these meant little to me, but such nice gestures actually reflected their attitude towards their employees.. Sort of an iron bowl kind of job.... Guess i'm going to enjoy being part of this big family. =)

The briefing ended at 8.30, after which i went home.... Thinking that my friends in foc should have finished their fright night trial, I jioed them for supper.... horrible mistake as they were only into 1/4 of their games. Poor me endured another 3 hrs for them to finish the trials, before we went to fong seng for supper. But the uncle forgot my order!!! Had to take away then, and ate it at 2 plus at nite, while listening to songs by josh groban and lonestar... good ambience... but think it will be great if there were someone special beside me, to talk to while i'm eating.. But since i'm all alone, i guess i will just enjoy the peace... amen...

My birthdate....

My friend sent me this email today... Apparently my birthdate (26th Nov) is supposed to mean something.. here goes....


Your Life
You are always curious and responsive to changes. Routine life is not the way you choose to live. Traveling is your favorite hobby because excitement is what you are after.

Well, cant fault this one... though i appears to be a very boring engineer-to-be, and leads a boring life (who in the right mind will stay at home the whole day!? for reference refer to my earlier blog in friendster). Deep down, I will like a dynamic lifestyle... where everything is changing rapidly, and i'm supposed to response to such changes quickly....

Your Love
You will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes and goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be looking around for the next one.

This is pretty lame. Who will ever want to be around an enemy or somone you dislike?? As for the last two sentences? I guess its pretty accurate.... most of my dreams are pretty short.... Everytime i woke up from my dreams, i forgot how the gal in my dream looks like.. haiz... i do have such short term memory...

The moral of this thread?? Basically i'm just bored... Nothing to update... But to please my ever dearies..... I had to come up with something right?? haha.. .But there's many such emails going around.... Believe it or not... The final decision lies with lies... (OK OK .... can see i'm not making much sense...)

Monday tuesday.....

well, lets talk about what i have done so far in the past few days..

Monday

I had beach games trial at sentosa. It was really fun, and its definitely not because of the mei meis in bikinis nor because of the little girls who went for the trials. In fact I didnt really bother talking to them.. haha.. hey i'm not that 色 kie....Rather it was the presence of my pals (eugene chuhui andy and junchen )who made it all worthwhile... haha... its not the activity that interest me, but the friendship =)

After the trial, i went for my secondary school choir gathering at essential brew(holland village). It was a gathering which would decide the fate of the alumni choir, whether to have it closed or to continue... attendance has been rather bad as passion dies down after a year. With the initial flame gone, and those jokers who joined for watever reasons beside singing gone, we are left with only 10 active members..

The choir was to continue as was decided by the majority. However many important issues that are crucial to the survival of the choir has yet to be ironed out. in fact, the questions were ignored...yes, we can continue as a 10 members choir. But how long is that going to last? Many of us (including me) are moving on to our next phase in life (working world, getting married, have a kid or two blah blah blah), we cant expect to be around forever. And given the small pool of members that we have, i forsee that in half a yr or so ( 2 yrs to be optimistic), we will sit down again and talked abt whether to carry on the alumni choir. duh.....

To me, we should focus on the bridging that gap between the school and us. We are strangers to the juniors and vice versa. And many of my batch will argue that they have totally lost ties with the school. But if you think about it, what brought and bonded us together was really the MUSIC making MOMENTS we shared in SCHOOL... in fact, many who joined the alumni at the start wanted that old nostalgic feeling again, and left because its not what they think it should be.

The ideal way of bridging the gap is of course through the music making and guidance that the seniors can offer to the juniors.. but that is out of the question now given our current state of competence. What i feel we can really do is to help out in the adminstrative part of the junior choir, to be supportive in their activities, provide guidance and even fundings(if possible), while we continue to improve on our musicality. As young working adults, what we have now is really the vast network, and we can really put it into good use to contribute back to our alma mater. haha.. well... maybe i am just too idealistic ba..

Oh well, having come to this stage, i guess we will really just have to pray hard and hope for the best outcome possible. And i seriously hope that it will work out, cuz at the end of the day, this alumni choir is my dream... It was the sole reason that i joined the national chorale, hoping to understand the workings behind an alumni. One which had benefitted me greatly, and given me an experience and sense of accomplishment that will last me for a lifetime..

Tuesday

Met up with ck for dinner. Wanted to eat at glutton's bay esplanade, but there were lightning so we went to the foodcourt at marina square.. however there was no 耗煎, and so we moved on to suntec city foodcourt instead... After dinner we went to watch madagascar (digital)... yes, its the second time i watched this show, but then its different, cuz its digital movie this time.. haha... the graphics is really really sharp, though the screen is slightly smaller... i still cant stand the ending.. too abrupt. But i give it a 2 thumbs up for the great graphics and music that liven up the show...

While chatting, i realised that its been a whole 2 yrs since i last met up with any of my old jc classmates. Many of my friends have changed gf/ bf for dunno how many times, and many have changed jobs... and i still ignorant about it... When i pressed her for the reason why i am kept in the dark, ck replied that i havent been attending gatherings for yrs... with my committments taking up the slot... Looking back, i realised that i have really focus my attention on my committments, and could have neglected my friends around me.. But i really want to thank you all for standing by me, never forsaking me.. (*wewowe* that sounds like what alex the Lion said nearing the end of the show)

By the way, who has madagascar soundtrack? i'm looking for the tune at the zoo, when they introduce alex the tiger.. its a really good tune.. anyone???

Quarter life crisis??

This mail was sent to me 2 years ago.. dated 30 June 2003. Thought little of it back then cuz i was still a bubbly young 21. I chanced upon it again while i was reading some older threads in my jc yahoogroup, and i was really shocked to see that what i'm going through emotionally is really as described.. man.. Am i really facing the Quarter Life Crisis.... well.. pple, do read and comment on it =)


>>They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along
> >>with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about
> >>yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
> >>
> >>You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two,
> >>but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
> >>
> >>You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends
> >>that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people
> >>you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the
> >>most important ones.
> >>
> >>What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't
> >>really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as
> >>you.
> >>
> >>You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you
> >>would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you
> >>are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
> >>
> >>Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find
> >>yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you
> >>have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to
> >>your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.
> >>
> >>One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry
> >>with the greatest force of your life.
> >>
> >>You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and
> >>you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the
> >>past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but
> >>stay where you are or move forward.
> >>
> >>You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
> >>damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
> >>decent enough that you want to get to know better.
> >>
> >>Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out
> >>why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.
> >>
> >>One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted
> >>and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same
> >>emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the
> >>same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about
> >>loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while
> >>winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a
> >>contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates
> >>to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard
> >>as we can to figure this whole thing out.
> >>
> >>Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone
> >>feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion.
> >>
> >>May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you
> >>strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy
> >